197

197 The new number as of yesterday-this has to be a joke. More than doubled from Wed. number.
Nothing surprises me anymore.
Waiting for my beta from today.
One minute I'm losing another pregnancy- the next minute it's sort of but not really back, just to most likely lose it again in another couple of days. Whoever thinks this is a funny joke to play on someone has a really twisted sense of humor. I can't believe this is happening again! This is so unfair! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
How does one stay sane through this-I have no idea.